~~**-I sigh in despair-**~~

I sigh in despair.
I think my mom has a serious problem lately. I mean.. What is going on man? I really wish I can figure out why she is always getting mad at us. I really wonder why. I mean all I did was come home late yesterday, the 20th of August 2007, Monday. Come on already!! It was just yesterday. I have always come home around that time and sometimes even later then that. So y do u have to make a big fuss over it now? I am already 19 yrs old. I mean like seriously. I wish u could like trust me more.

All I come home to is nagging. Constant nagging. What’s up with that man? This is not done. That is not done. Is all I hear when I get home! Sometimes I wonder why I have such a family. Why must I come home to this home? Why? Why? I ask myself if I have done anything wrong. I really sigh in despair. Sometimes I do not even feel like coming home. I actually drag myself to do so. I wish they would trust me more. For god’s sake I’m already 19. I hang with my friends in school. I don have time to loiter anywhere. Causeway is boring and I don have time to run around orchard. Oh god. Please tell me why am I getting this kind of treatment?

I thought family is where I can go to when I need comfort. But this is one that I want to get away from. I hope that whoever reading this will not get the wrong idea of me. But if u were to just be in my shoes for a week in this family, I think u would so appreciate your family more than I do. I know I shouldn’t be even typing this. But I feel so darn frustrated. This is another reason why I don think I can settle down.

Haix. I just hope my mom goes back to work. I think staying at home being alone is boredom to her and she is vending her frustrations out on us. Just want to get it over and done with. God, help me get thru with this nightmare please. I love my family but this I so cannot stand. No offence to my mom thou. She is a lovely woman when she is come. Laugh out loud. I am so contradicting what I was writing earlier. Oh well. I was writing my feelings out. That is supposed to be good right? Anyways, I am going to end off here for this journal. See you around.

Date: 21st August 2007
Day: Tuesday
Time: 2040hrs