Haha...im back PeePs..
I knw it has been quit a while since i last wrote into here. Been kinda busy with lotsa other stuff yeah.
First of all, i wana say that i have finally quit from the place wher i have been wrkin since jan 2007. It is funny because i did not have to work more than a yr b4 i finally made up my mind 2quit. & most of my frns frm ther hav also quit.
Mamat, da one and only guy quit frm ther and went 2mlysia 2 study also. Ezan quit aft him, & less dan a wk, i quit and a couple of days aft me was fadiah. Can u belief it? All da teens are soo outta ther man. I wonder hw d mgr is copin widout us. No offence bt i tink he asked for it.
He shouldnt have blackedmail any of us. How dare he yeah.
Newayz, lots has happened since i last wrote in. 2many 2 write. i dun even knw wher 2 begin..
haix..i duno...im confused.. ryt nw...im some what facin a small prob...i tink one of my close frn is kinda angry bt i m nt sure wid me or whom and i duno y either.
Yeah...tat's al i can write for nw...im stil wonderin y but my mind is 2 excited 2tink abt tt nw. LoL...wit tt i shall end here
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
HeYa!!!
Hey wassup peeps!! Its been awhile now since I last wrote into my blog yeah I knw. Lol.
Newayz, im fine yeah. The holis has been a rather relaxing period. Obviously I have no idea how exhausted I have been all along and I thank the fact the holis came in at the right time. Even thou I was really not looking forward to it at the beginning, I am definitely enjoying it now. I mean think about it. I get to do things that I was not able to do before. I have time to enjoy being with my siblings. Visiting my new born baby brother who is still in the hospital by the way. I get a chance to actually sit down and read book that I wanted to read. I get a chance to sleep in late and work in the day time and not the night shift like how I always use to.
Honestly saying, I am kind of bored working the night shift and I feel like a vampire when I do that shift. Besides, I miss the sunlight and the rush of customers. Since I am still going to be working there for awhile longer, I might as well make the best of it. Which is what I have in mind exactly.
Anyways, I was working my 1st day shift yesterday when the second register jammed suddenly. I began to panic as it has been a while since I had such a thing happening to me and I was in a state that my mind was not functioning well. Ok that usually happens to me when summin happens and I start to panic. I can’t realy think straight either. I called my fren to ask her. And I followed her instructions. Thank god that there were not many people coming in around that time. O yeah and u know what? I was on the fone wid my fren and looking out the window, I saw someone that looked very very familiar. at 1st sight I thought I was looking at a ghost or that my mind and eyes are playing tricks on me but they were not. Can u make a guess who that person was? Alrite alrite. The person was Aamir. Alright, I totally did not expect to see him at all. I mean imagine my surprise when he even came into the store. I do not usually get visitors but him dropping by was really a nice surprise indeed.
It sort of made my day. Any friend who drops by usually makes my day yeah. If u were wondering I mean. Lol. anyways. The day ended rather well. Anyways I have to go now so I shall end my blog here.
Day: Saturday
Date: 1st September 2007
Time: 1332
Newayz, im fine yeah. The holis has been a rather relaxing period. Obviously I have no idea how exhausted I have been all along and I thank the fact the holis came in at the right time. Even thou I was really not looking forward to it at the beginning, I am definitely enjoying it now. I mean think about it. I get to do things that I was not able to do before. I have time to enjoy being with my siblings. Visiting my new born baby brother who is still in the hospital by the way. I get a chance to actually sit down and read book that I wanted to read. I get a chance to sleep in late and work in the day time and not the night shift like how I always use to.
Honestly saying, I am kind of bored working the night shift and I feel like a vampire when I do that shift. Besides, I miss the sunlight and the rush of customers. Since I am still going to be working there for awhile longer, I might as well make the best of it. Which is what I have in mind exactly.
Anyways, I was working my 1st day shift yesterday when the second register jammed suddenly. I began to panic as it has been a while since I had such a thing happening to me and I was in a state that my mind was not functioning well. Ok that usually happens to me when summin happens and I start to panic. I can’t realy think straight either. I called my fren to ask her. And I followed her instructions. Thank god that there were not many people coming in around that time. O yeah and u know what? I was on the fone wid my fren and looking out the window, I saw someone that looked very very familiar. at 1st sight I thought I was looking at a ghost or that my mind and eyes are playing tricks on me but they were not. Can u make a guess who that person was? Alrite alrite. The person was Aamir. Alright, I totally did not expect to see him at all. I mean imagine my surprise when he even came into the store. I do not usually get visitors but him dropping by was really a nice surprise indeed.
It sort of made my day. Any friend who drops by usually makes my day yeah. If u were wondering I mean. Lol. anyways. The day ended rather well. Anyways I have to go now so I shall end my blog here.
Day: Saturday
Date: 1st September 2007
Time: 1332
Monday, August 27, 2007
~~**-Me Agn-**~~
Hi! It is me again. I don really know what I am feeling right now but I know I am definitely having mixed emotions. There is a mixture of lots of sadness, a little bit of happiness. A lot of numbness and emptiness. There is nothing that can be done to cheer me up. I don think I can talk about it without crying so yeah. I don want to cry. I have cried enough already.
Today, we went to Seoul Garden. I met Aamir on the way before going there. Do you know, I had this heavy feeling again knowing that I was going back to Woodlands? It was like I want to run away. I did not mind going anywhere else except that place. But I had to. I distracted myself by talking to him. That was partially the reason why I decided to meet him before going there. We had fun eating various kinds chicken and beef and other stuff. I had fun experimenting with the various tastes of drinks which I mixed into my cup. It was nice. Just hope I do not end up with a tummy ache later in the morning. We took pictures. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, Aamir was finally wearing a shirt that fitted him nicely. He really looked nice for once. At least he did not look like my uncle. Lol. Ok, he will kill me if he finds out about this. Oh well, it is alright with me.
U know, I ate till I was like on the verge of bursting. And I had to go for a long walk to try and digest the food. I went with Sharon, Ani, Beverly and Aamir from the 6th floor to the basement toilet and then back up to the 6th floor where Seoul Garden is. Qilah and Ani have been admiring this one Malay guy. Ok I do admit that he is kind of cute but that is it. I know the person I like is way better than that. No offence thou.
Anyways, we finally managed to eat to our heart’s content. The guys really ate to their heart’s content alright. Lol. Anyways, we played with the food there. I know we’re not supposed to do that but it was funny. After all that eating, we went to the arcade to play games. Actually, I did not intent to play any games but seeing everyone so enthusiastic about the games I decided to join in. I even played a racing game on the motorcycle with Aamir. Can u believe that? Me racing on a motorcycle? Lol..
We spent quite an amount of money on this one game, I don really know the name of it but you have to be really focused and get the boxes arranged in such a way that it must all be align. It was not easy I tell u. Few tried their luck but to no avail sadly. I must say I had fun watching them in constant concentration trying to get it right. Lol. There was like this rush of adrenaline in the air. So intense but over a game. lol.
Last but not least, we paid Wei Fang a visit since she was working and then we slowly made our way back out. It was then it drawn upon me that that would be the last time I would be seeing most of my friends. As for Aamir, I know I would definitely not lose contact with him. He still owes me my episodes of X-files, unless he wouldn’t mind me watching Grey’s Anatomy that is. Lol.. it is very tempting. Hehe.
Anyways, I went home praying that I would get home faster because I know my mom would have my head for coming home late. But u know what? I’m still alive because I am here typing this out. Lol.. to all those people that was not able to make it, I just want to say that I would miss you guys all very much and I want to thank you guys for making the 1st half of my year one a memorable one that I will not forget.
As for FeeLa, Hema & Aamir, I have no intention of losing u guys so I hope that inshallah we will make the time for each other. We must do so. & I know that we will meet again in the future. I love you guys loads and I am sure u guys know that. please take care and don forget me. The laughing hyena of the class. The one & only NaZzY NaZ NaZ. Aite, I shall end here for now. It is really getting late. Take carex peeps.
LoVe
NaZ
Date: 26th August 2007
Day: Saturday
Time: 0130hrs
Today, we went to Seoul Garden. I met Aamir on the way before going there. Do you know, I had this heavy feeling again knowing that I was going back to Woodlands? It was like I want to run away. I did not mind going anywhere else except that place. But I had to. I distracted myself by talking to him. That was partially the reason why I decided to meet him before going there. We had fun eating various kinds chicken and beef and other stuff. I had fun experimenting with the various tastes of drinks which I mixed into my cup. It was nice. Just hope I do not end up with a tummy ache later in the morning. We took pictures. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, Aamir was finally wearing a shirt that fitted him nicely. He really looked nice for once. At least he did not look like my uncle. Lol. Ok, he will kill me if he finds out about this. Oh well, it is alright with me.
U know, I ate till I was like on the verge of bursting. And I had to go for a long walk to try and digest the food. I went with Sharon, Ani, Beverly and Aamir from the 6th floor to the basement toilet and then back up to the 6th floor where Seoul Garden is. Qilah and Ani have been admiring this one Malay guy. Ok I do admit that he is kind of cute but that is it. I know the person I like is way better than that. No offence thou.
Anyways, we finally managed to eat to our heart’s content. The guys really ate to their heart’s content alright. Lol. Anyways, we played with the food there. I know we’re not supposed to do that but it was funny. After all that eating, we went to the arcade to play games. Actually, I did not intent to play any games but seeing everyone so enthusiastic about the games I decided to join in. I even played a racing game on the motorcycle with Aamir. Can u believe that? Me racing on a motorcycle? Lol..
We spent quite an amount of money on this one game, I don really know the name of it but you have to be really focused and get the boxes arranged in such a way that it must all be align. It was not easy I tell u. Few tried their luck but to no avail sadly. I must say I had fun watching them in constant concentration trying to get it right. Lol. There was like this rush of adrenaline in the air. So intense but over a game. lol.
Last but not least, we paid Wei Fang a visit since she was working and then we slowly made our way back out. It was then it drawn upon me that that would be the last time I would be seeing most of my friends. As for Aamir, I know I would definitely not lose contact with him. He still owes me my episodes of X-files, unless he wouldn’t mind me watching Grey’s Anatomy that is. Lol.. it is very tempting. Hehe.
Anyways, I went home praying that I would get home faster because I know my mom would have my head for coming home late. But u know what? I’m still alive because I am here typing this out. Lol.. to all those people that was not able to make it, I just want to say that I would miss you guys all very much and I want to thank you guys for making the 1st half of my year one a memorable one that I will not forget.
As for FeeLa, Hema & Aamir, I have no intention of losing u guys so I hope that inshallah we will make the time for each other. We must do so. & I know that we will meet again in the future. I love you guys loads and I am sure u guys know that. please take care and don forget me. The laughing hyena of the class. The one & only NaZzY NaZ NaZ. Aite, I shall end here for now. It is really getting late. Take carex peeps.
LoVe
NaZ
Date: 26th August 2007
Day: Saturday
Time: 0130hrs
~~**-BacK Agn-**~~
Hey I am back again. ‘Laughs’ today, as in yesterday, was the last day of school. It was enterprise lesson and it was on a Thursday. I met FeeLa and Hema at the interchange before going to class. As usual, we were late. ‘Laughs out loud’
We went into class to find that the lesson was not that interesting. I don know y but I had no feeling to put my heart and soul into the lessons this whole week. I think it was due to the fact that it was our last week and all that was on y mind was to make the best of it with my dear good friends as much as possible. Thank god Hema was able to come for the last day. & FeeLa and I were really not looking forward to going debate because all we wanted to do was hang out with each other one last time. U know? I feel sad already just by writing this.
Anyways, as I was saying, we did not want to go for debate. And thank our lucky stars that debate training was cancelled. Ha-ha. During the 1st break, the 4 of us bought our usual Tom Yum cup noodles and sat at one of the usual corners and having that for our breakfast. Shah came to join us in our chat for awhile too. It was fun. We were also supposed to attend Jean’s birthday but we could not due to some reasons. We then headed down to W3 to have our usual Nasi Lemak. This time round Shah joined us.
U want to know another surprise? FeeLa surprised us by revealing the truth about her being able to actually speak Tamil. Can u believe that? all this time she has been lying and saying that she does not know it but she does. I was surprised but I think Hema was more in shock than I am. I mean think of it, which idiot who cannot speak that language, scores an A1 for the subject man who? Upon hearing that, in the state of surprise, I accidentally spilled the nuts on my plate onto the table. Ha-ha. I had a small food fight with FeeLa after that. I really had my share of fun. After lunch, we went to buy bubble tea from W1. We then made our way back to class to continue with our last presentation for the day. I had fun working with my good friends one last time. Presentation was fast.
Before we know it, the end of the lesson has finally arrived. There was this really heavy feeling in the pit of my tummy. I really wanted to dance and party but I did not have the heart to. Oh yeah, I even brought the Royce chocolates to share with the Fantastic 4. That was to savor our togetherness one last time. Those chocolates are really delicious.
In class, Wei Fang sang for us again because Hema wanted to hear her sing. Sharon sang a beautiful melody, my favorite song because I requested it. So sweet of her. Thanks Sharon. That song she sang really made me cry. There are a few reasons and secrets behind that song I do admit, but there is no need to reveal that here. Some will know.
After everything, we went to the café Galilee in the library to buy cheesecake, but there were none. So we decided to buy Ben and Jerry’s ice cream so enjoy the moments. It was definitely the time I have ever had. We had only one game of pool because they were keeping everything due to the holidays. We took pictures at the pool table also.
Hema and FeeLa left school 1st as Hema had to go home early. But before that, we all had a big group hug and I almost cries there and then. Sigh. Anyways, Aamir and I stayed back in school to watch his most favorite episode of the X-files. It was really one of the sweetest episodes of the X-Files I have ever watched. It is no wonder y he likes it a lot. I will not forget that episode yeah. I really loved the part where Mulder asked Scully to dance with him to a beautiful song. I can’t remember the song thou. So yeah.
Last but not least, we both finally left school. I felt sad to be leaving the school compounds. The place was like my second home. I mean W16B was my second home and the 6th floor toilet was my 3rd. Lol. I know. Crazy me. The good friends that I have made. I know that u might think that the way I am typing all these is as thou my world is going to end or something. But this is just the way I am. I am sensitive and emotional. I can be very easily touched. And I treasure friends a lot. So yeah. Think whatever u want.
I feel very sad just typing all these memories down. I feel like crying again. I know that life has to move on. But just let me live in this world for a while longer. I will definitely move on, it just takes time. For me, it will take more time. I know myself. I can adapt well to changes. Most important, my heart, soul and mind must be ready. & it is definitely not ready now.
Anyways, I have written more than enough for this episode. I am going to stop here. I hope to see my good friends soon. I miss them already. ‘Laughs’
LoVe
NaZ
Date: 26th August 2007
Day: Saturday
Time: 0017hrs
We went into class to find that the lesson was not that interesting. I don know y but I had no feeling to put my heart and soul into the lessons this whole week. I think it was due to the fact that it was our last week and all that was on y mind was to make the best of it with my dear good friends as much as possible. Thank god Hema was able to come for the last day. & FeeLa and I were really not looking forward to going debate because all we wanted to do was hang out with each other one last time. U know? I feel sad already just by writing this.
Anyways, as I was saying, we did not want to go for debate. And thank our lucky stars that debate training was cancelled. Ha-ha. During the 1st break, the 4 of us bought our usual Tom Yum cup noodles and sat at one of the usual corners and having that for our breakfast. Shah came to join us in our chat for awhile too. It was fun. We were also supposed to attend Jean’s birthday but we could not due to some reasons. We then headed down to W3 to have our usual Nasi Lemak. This time round Shah joined us.
U want to know another surprise? FeeLa surprised us by revealing the truth about her being able to actually speak Tamil. Can u believe that? all this time she has been lying and saying that she does not know it but she does. I was surprised but I think Hema was more in shock than I am. I mean think of it, which idiot who cannot speak that language, scores an A1 for the subject man who? Upon hearing that, in the state of surprise, I accidentally spilled the nuts on my plate onto the table. Ha-ha. I had a small food fight with FeeLa after that. I really had my share of fun. After lunch, we went to buy bubble tea from W1. We then made our way back to class to continue with our last presentation for the day. I had fun working with my good friends one last time. Presentation was fast.
Before we know it, the end of the lesson has finally arrived. There was this really heavy feeling in the pit of my tummy. I really wanted to dance and party but I did not have the heart to. Oh yeah, I even brought the Royce chocolates to share with the Fantastic 4. That was to savor our togetherness one last time. Those chocolates are really delicious.
In class, Wei Fang sang for us again because Hema wanted to hear her sing. Sharon sang a beautiful melody, my favorite song because I requested it. So sweet of her. Thanks Sharon. That song she sang really made me cry. There are a few reasons and secrets behind that song I do admit, but there is no need to reveal that here. Some will know.
After everything, we went to the café Galilee in the library to buy cheesecake, but there were none. So we decided to buy Ben and Jerry’s ice cream so enjoy the moments. It was definitely the time I have ever had. We had only one game of pool because they were keeping everything due to the holidays. We took pictures at the pool table also.
Hema and FeeLa left school 1st as Hema had to go home early. But before that, we all had a big group hug and I almost cries there and then. Sigh. Anyways, Aamir and I stayed back in school to watch his most favorite episode of the X-files. It was really one of the sweetest episodes of the X-Files I have ever watched. It is no wonder y he likes it a lot. I will not forget that episode yeah. I really loved the part where Mulder asked Scully to dance with him to a beautiful song. I can’t remember the song thou. So yeah.
Last but not least, we both finally left school. I felt sad to be leaving the school compounds. The place was like my second home. I mean W16B was my second home and the 6th floor toilet was my 3rd. Lol. I know. Crazy me. The good friends that I have made. I know that u might think that the way I am typing all these is as thou my world is going to end or something. But this is just the way I am. I am sensitive and emotional. I can be very easily touched. And I treasure friends a lot. So yeah. Think whatever u want.
I feel very sad just typing all these memories down. I feel like crying again. I know that life has to move on. But just let me live in this world for a while longer. I will definitely move on, it just takes time. For me, it will take more time. I know myself. I can adapt well to changes. Most important, my heart, soul and mind must be ready. & it is definitely not ready now.
Anyways, I have written more than enough for this episode. I am going to stop here. I hope to see my good friends soon. I miss them already. ‘Laughs’
LoVe
NaZ
Date: 26th August 2007
Day: Saturday
Time: 0017hrs
~~**-YesTerDay-**~~
Yesterday, the 23rd of August 2007, Wednesday, it was our last science lesson of the first semester. It was also the second last day of school I must add. There weren’t much people in class. It was not really a fun day at the beginning either. I mean, it was a boring lesson which had calculations for the day. Think about it. It is already the second last day of school and it is the last lesson for that module, who would want to sit thru a day of calculations man? Lol. Anyways, I came into class late only to find that none of my good friends have arrived yet. I was seriously not in the mood for lesson. I was anxious and worried and sad because something had happened the previous day and I guess it had affected me more than I thought it would. I can’t reveal it out thou.
Anyways, Aamir came in awhile later, followed by FeeLa. Hema was still on mc so she did not come to class. Thank god they came alright. I was bored and I certainly needed a distraction. I know that he was really not happy. I really did wish there was some way or something I could do to cheer him up. I know that she was not happy because of what he was feeling either. But we could not do anything but just be there for him. I did not like feeling useless but that was all I could do. Sadly thou.
During the second break, our facilitator actually ordered for the whole class pizza. That was really sweet of her I must say. I ate 2slices. It was yummy alright. And after the second break, we had a game of ‘Deal or No Deal’ by the facilitator. I tell you that were one of the funniest games I have ever played in class. And you know what, I was asked to sing a song. Me. Of all people me. I am someone who cannot sing. I mean, I don have a good voice and I was down with a flu that was seriously killing me. And I have to sing on top of that? Oh my god!!
I pretty much embarrassed myself out there. But then again, it was all for the fun of it. I don think anyone from W16B is going to forget me singing ‘Umbrella’ anytime soon either. After all that games, Hema who came to school to reformat her computer came up to class and we all started taking pictures with the facilitator. Then Shah came to join us in taking pictures also. The most wonderful thing is, FeeLa forgot to add in the memory stick of her camera. How dumb can one get? But that’s just FeeLa for u yeah. We had our share of fun, but we left early for home.
It was a fun day at the end, but I know in my heart, something was bugging me, but I did not want to say it out loud. I shall end here for now thou.
Date: 25th August 2007
Day: Friday
Time: 2237hrs
Anyways, Aamir came in awhile later, followed by FeeLa. Hema was still on mc so she did not come to class. Thank god they came alright. I was bored and I certainly needed a distraction. I know that he was really not happy. I really did wish there was some way or something I could do to cheer him up. I know that she was not happy because of what he was feeling either. But we could not do anything but just be there for him. I did not like feeling useless but that was all I could do. Sadly thou.
During the second break, our facilitator actually ordered for the whole class pizza. That was really sweet of her I must say. I ate 2slices. It was yummy alright. And after the second break, we had a game of ‘Deal or No Deal’ by the facilitator. I tell you that were one of the funniest games I have ever played in class. And you know what, I was asked to sing a song. Me. Of all people me. I am someone who cannot sing. I mean, I don have a good voice and I was down with a flu that was seriously killing me. And I have to sing on top of that? Oh my god!!
I pretty much embarrassed myself out there. But then again, it was all for the fun of it. I don think anyone from W16B is going to forget me singing ‘Umbrella’ anytime soon either. After all that games, Hema who came to school to reformat her computer came up to class and we all started taking pictures with the facilitator. Then Shah came to join us in taking pictures also. The most wonderful thing is, FeeLa forgot to add in the memory stick of her camera. How dumb can one get? But that’s just FeeLa for u yeah. We had our share of fun, but we left early for home.
It was a fun day at the end, but I know in my heart, something was bugging me, but I did not want to say it out loud. I shall end here for now thou.
Date: 25th August 2007
Day: Friday
Time: 2237hrs
Thursday, August 23, 2007
~~**-U KnW WaT?-**~~
You know what? Today, 22nd of August 2007, Tuesday, is the last day of our communication lesson with our facilitator, Miss Audra Lim. And guess what our given problem was? One last time. Oh man, of all the things I had to come to. I had to sit for that lesson.
Anyways, today’s lesson was to come up with a game either modified from already an old game or design a new one. Either way, I had lots of fun doing it. I mean at first, my team and I really did not know what to do. We were blank and we came up with games that were really not that fun or interesting. It was only after FeeLa and I had lunch did our creative brain fluids decided to work. Laughs out loudly. I know it does sound funny but it is the truth. At almost the end of the lesson, each team played another team’s game. I know my team had fun playing the game we got. I know I did. And at the end of the lesson, the whole class played a game together. It was fun and I know that almost everyone enjoyed themselves. Well I really hope that everyone did so because there might never be another time like this ever. Sadly, all good things must come to an end. I really detest it man. I am so going to miss my class and our facilitators. I am really going to miss them all.
You know? When I first stepped into W16B, I had no intentions of getting close to anyone, and I certainly did not want anyone getting close to me. I thought I was never going to make any friends of the same race or religion that I am. But am I wrong, I think the first friend I was close to was Aamir. Followed by FeeLa and then Hema. I really had no idea that I was going to have a blast with them. & I really looked forward to coming to school because of them actually. I mean, I know I have to study for my grades and stuff. But when the lesson gets boring and uninteresting, they are the ones that lift my spirits. They are funny people and I thought I am never going to say this but I am so going to miss them. I am going to miss them badly.
I really don know how they view and all. I mean, I know they find me crazy and the one who has a laughing disorder etc but how they really find me is something I will never know. I hope that I have made their lives happy and that I was there when they needed a friend. I hope I have made them laugh when times are bad and consoled them when they go sad. I shall never forget them at all. In fact, I hope that even after we split class, our friendship still stays strong. I mean seriously. I love them a lot honestly. & it is something I really did not want to do. Which is to care for my friends so much? That is the one thing I really don like about Republic Polytechnic. We have to split class every 6mnths.
Sadly though. Haix. I hope they don forget me, because, I know one thing’s for sure, I will not forget them. Anyways, I cried after most of the people have left class. I did not intend to but I guess that is me. I am an emotional person and I am very easily touched I guess. I try to be strong but it my emotions just give way. But it is alright. Thank god FeeLa was there in class with me. Someone who can comfort me in the right state of my mind.
Sigh. I shall end my journal here right now. Will get back again next time. See u.
Date: 21st August 2007
Day: Tuesday
Time: 2145hrs
Anyways, today’s lesson was to come up with a game either modified from already an old game or design a new one. Either way, I had lots of fun doing it. I mean at first, my team and I really did not know what to do. We were blank and we came up with games that were really not that fun or interesting. It was only after FeeLa and I had lunch did our creative brain fluids decided to work. Laughs out loudly. I know it does sound funny but it is the truth. At almost the end of the lesson, each team played another team’s game. I know my team had fun playing the game we got. I know I did. And at the end of the lesson, the whole class played a game together. It was fun and I know that almost everyone enjoyed themselves. Well I really hope that everyone did so because there might never be another time like this ever. Sadly, all good things must come to an end. I really detest it man. I am so going to miss my class and our facilitators. I am really going to miss them all.
You know? When I first stepped into W16B, I had no intentions of getting close to anyone, and I certainly did not want anyone getting close to me. I thought I was never going to make any friends of the same race or religion that I am. But am I wrong, I think the first friend I was close to was Aamir. Followed by FeeLa and then Hema. I really had no idea that I was going to have a blast with them. & I really looked forward to coming to school because of them actually. I mean, I know I have to study for my grades and stuff. But when the lesson gets boring and uninteresting, they are the ones that lift my spirits. They are funny people and I thought I am never going to say this but I am so going to miss them. I am going to miss them badly.
I really don know how they view and all. I mean, I know they find me crazy and the one who has a laughing disorder etc but how they really find me is something I will never know. I hope that I have made their lives happy and that I was there when they needed a friend. I hope I have made them laugh when times are bad and consoled them when they go sad. I shall never forget them at all. In fact, I hope that even after we split class, our friendship still stays strong. I mean seriously. I love them a lot honestly. & it is something I really did not want to do. Which is to care for my friends so much? That is the one thing I really don like about Republic Polytechnic. We have to split class every 6mnths.
Sadly though. Haix. I hope they don forget me, because, I know one thing’s for sure, I will not forget them. Anyways, I cried after most of the people have left class. I did not intend to but I guess that is me. I am an emotional person and I am very easily touched I guess. I try to be strong but it my emotions just give way. But it is alright. Thank god FeeLa was there in class with me. Someone who can comfort me in the right state of my mind.
Sigh. I shall end my journal here right now. Will get back again next time. See u.
Date: 21st August 2007
Day: Tuesday
Time: 2145hrs
~~**-I sigh in despair-**~~
I sigh in despair.
I think my mom has a serious problem lately. I mean.. What is going on man? I really wish I can figure out why she is always getting mad at us. I really wonder why. I mean all I did was come home late yesterday, the 20th of August 2007, Monday. Come on already!! It was just yesterday. I have always come home around that time and sometimes even later then that. So y do u have to make a big fuss over it now? I am already 19 yrs old. I mean like seriously. I wish u could like trust me more.
All I come home to is nagging. Constant nagging. What’s up with that man? This is not done. That is not done. Is all I hear when I get home! Sometimes I wonder why I have such a family. Why must I come home to this home? Why? Why? I ask myself if I have done anything wrong. I really sigh in despair. Sometimes I do not even feel like coming home. I actually drag myself to do so. I wish they would trust me more. For god’s sake I’m already 19. I hang with my friends in school. I don have time to loiter anywhere. Causeway is boring and I don have time to run around orchard. Oh god. Please tell me why am I getting this kind of treatment?
I thought family is where I can go to when I need comfort. But this is one that I want to get away from. I hope that whoever reading this will not get the wrong idea of me. But if u were to just be in my shoes for a week in this family, I think u would so appreciate your family more than I do. I know I shouldn’t be even typing this. But I feel so darn frustrated. This is another reason why I don think I can settle down.
Haix. I just hope my mom goes back to work. I think staying at home being alone is boredom to her and she is vending her frustrations out on us. Just want to get it over and done with. God, help me get thru with this nightmare please. I love my family but this I so cannot stand. No offence to my mom thou. She is a lovely woman when she is come. Laugh out loud. I am so contradicting what I was writing earlier. Oh well. I was writing my feelings out. That is supposed to be good right? Anyways, I am going to end off here for this journal. See you around.
Date: 21st August 2007
Day: Tuesday
Time: 2040hrs
I think my mom has a serious problem lately. I mean.. What is going on man? I really wish I can figure out why she is always getting mad at us. I really wonder why. I mean all I did was come home late yesterday, the 20th of August 2007, Monday. Come on already!! It was just yesterday. I have always come home around that time and sometimes even later then that. So y do u have to make a big fuss over it now? I am already 19 yrs old. I mean like seriously. I wish u could like trust me more.
All I come home to is nagging. Constant nagging. What’s up with that man? This is not done. That is not done. Is all I hear when I get home! Sometimes I wonder why I have such a family. Why must I come home to this home? Why? Why? I ask myself if I have done anything wrong. I really sigh in despair. Sometimes I do not even feel like coming home. I actually drag myself to do so. I wish they would trust me more. For god’s sake I’m already 19. I hang with my friends in school. I don have time to loiter anywhere. Causeway is boring and I don have time to run around orchard. Oh god. Please tell me why am I getting this kind of treatment?
I thought family is where I can go to when I need comfort. But this is one that I want to get away from. I hope that whoever reading this will not get the wrong idea of me. But if u were to just be in my shoes for a week in this family, I think u would so appreciate your family more than I do. I know I shouldn’t be even typing this. But I feel so darn frustrated. This is another reason why I don think I can settle down.
Haix. I just hope my mom goes back to work. I think staying at home being alone is boredom to her and she is vending her frustrations out on us. Just want to get it over and done with. God, help me get thru with this nightmare please. I love my family but this I so cannot stand. No offence to my mom thou. She is a lovely woman when she is come. Laugh out loud. I am so contradicting what I was writing earlier. Oh well. I was writing my feelings out. That is supposed to be good right? Anyways, I am going to end off here for this journal. See you around.
Date: 21st August 2007
Day: Tuesday
Time: 2040hrs
Friday, July 27, 2007
~~**-TearDropsOnMyGuitar-**~~
He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see. What I want, what I need it, everything that we should be. I bet that she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about. And she’s got everything that I have to live without. He talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny. And I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me. He says he’s so in love. He’s finally got it right. I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night.
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only thing that keeps me, wishing on a wishing star. He‘s the song in the car, I keep singing duno why I do.
Drew walks by me. Can’t he tell that I can’t breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, the kind of flawless I wish I could be. She better hold him tight, give him all the love. Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause.
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only thing that keeps me, wishing on a wishing star. He‘s the song, in the car, I keep singing duno why I do.
So I drive home alone, as I turn off the light. I put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.
Cause he’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only one that’s got enough for me to break my heart. He’s the song, in the car; I keep singing duno why I do. He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough and he’s all that I need to fall into.
He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see.
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only thing that keeps me, wishing on a wishing star. He‘s the song in the car, I keep singing duno why I do.
Drew walks by me. Can’t he tell that I can’t breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, the kind of flawless I wish I could be. She better hold him tight, give him all the love. Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause.
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only thing that keeps me, wishing on a wishing star. He‘s the song, in the car, I keep singing duno why I do.
So I drive home alone, as I turn off the light. I put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight.
Cause he’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only one that’s got enough for me to break my heart. He’s the song, in the car; I keep singing duno why I do. He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough and he’s all that I need to fall into.
He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see.
I like this song so i decided to have it posted. I am still trying to find out who sang this beautiful song.
~~**-NaZ-**~~
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