Fucked up!

Its a Monday night and I really do not like the feeling that i have that is lingering at the pit of my tummy.

It is already bad enough that i have a bad tummy ache already!

To top it, i really do not feel good about my presentation which is this coming Wednesday. My slides are not done and i have absolutely no idea what i should and should not add on my part.

I feel really so crappy and i just hate it. I really hope i can do well for this final presentation. I really want to end this fast and not worry about it anymore.

& I really cannot understand why I am missing u like crazy.. I mean like missing u soo much...

I freaking miss the days that u were here with me in school. Going on lunch breaks with me and Karz. I miss waiting for u after school and going for some lame shit talks. Even though i only spend a mere few hours being close to u, I know i always felt good being in your presence. & I remember looking forward to waiting for u at the MRT station, just so i can go school with u despite knowing the fact i will be freaking late and might even end up skipping lesson because it's just to darn late to be there.

I miss the times where i laughed and joke with u at something really that happened in school or in class. & i miss the msn chats that we used to have. Like asking each other if we are done with class or not...

Gone were the days where u were with me by my side and now... it is coming to the end of school and i miss u like fuck!

Call me insane or stupid i don't freaking care... I missed u soo much... But somehow u just go unaware!!!

I know you are all in on your business and u wanna make it big!! But i feel somehow neglected and not loved at all!! Even a simple response of "i miss u" or "i love u" i hardly hear these days... WHy??

U are so caught up in ur stupid work and u think/feel that i am the one who do not love u...

Sigh... I hope u will realize all this before it is too late...